20+ days of Monique

yes, there is a plus in the title
20+ days of Monique

because these nineteen days are already preset FO SHO going to spend or have already spent with her
....boy am i going to get sick of Monique
JKJKJK i love every moment I spend with you monique♥♥♥

down from hiding under blankets from my parents
to teaching you CTR
to walking and talking in Ocee
to kekekekekekekja;lkfjds;ljfe-ing


YEAH THATS RIGHT---im talking to YOU, mo

okays whew...here we go

Day 1: i get a text from monique going "hey let's hang out" so we do...
randomly spontaneously..out of the blue. We hang at Ocee
swing a TON
lie down on grass and gaze at the sun eating our goldfish
go home (my home) eat dinner, play crash team racing, and making webcasts for our lovely jessie&ivan


Day 2: ...12:00 am..monique goes home
later in the day she picks me up to go to her house for an ACCCN dinner par-tay hehe
we....shishkabob awesomeness made by mrs. chang
go pick up a movie (Nine)
get yelled at by Valerie for picking a "bad movie"
we watch it later...the scandalousness of it is pretty shocking, but its interesting :]
APPLES TO APPLES
(apparently i'm horrific, demanding, and busy)
annndddd leave at twelve...AM


Day 3: Meet up at WHIRLWIND WOOHOO!!!
to see all those adorable little youngins and to have our Costa Rica meeting...
we are allowed only four shirts, a dress, two pairs of shoes, three pairs of underwear, two pants, three pairs of socks, and no comb x]
later---potluck dinner f/ whirlwind team
uncle joey brought oreo ice cream♥


Day 4: came over to my house to let the 'rents play tennis
hehehehehe we played CTR again
...mmm could've spent more time with her if i decided to tag along with whirlwind and go to tofu house, whirlyballing, and lasertagging
man...i should've gone

and DAY4 is TODAY!!

fifteen more definite dates to go~
the next 4 are for pre-costa rica retreat
the next 8 after that is for COSTA RICA!! woohoo
the next 4 after that is for Shocco '10

and who knows after that?

but yes---each time i'm with you mo
i shall never fail to laugh my head off
your heart is beautiful and i'm so happy to be your friend :]
i'm glad we have all these awesome days of summer together cuz i will miss you like no other when you head off to GA tech
hehe...but i'll see you sundays anyways so its all good ;]

♥

♥♥♥

wow..okay now

in blatant contrast to my latest post
i am going to talk about marriage

yes..that happy ever after, storybook ending, fairy tales coming true
in case you didn't notice..that last sentence was the first line of lyrics for Carrie Underwood's song Ever Ever After...not surprisingly made for Enchanted

but i just got back from a wedding
it was beautiful and I fell in love
yes--me, rebecca fell in love
me who's never had a relationship or any sort of that stuff
in ♥♥♥♥♥♥ head over heels...i'm going to spend the rest of my life kind of stuff

i fell in love with shrimp grits

LOOOLOLOLOL did i get you? :D
if i did, please leave a comment and tell me ^^


yes..shrimp grits are great and all and i know i'm a gourmand
but i mainly talked about it to grab your attention
WOOOOO~~ i got the hook! haha

back to the wedding

it was beautiful---one of the best i've been to
not beacause of the white flowers caressing the air, the gorgeous dresses, or the song sung during the benediction

it was the sense of family, the security of love that so obviously flowed between Emily and Chris.
It wasn't a gaudy love, wasn't showy or understated
they were both absolutely certain of their choice and one in God
their families came up during the ceremony as two families became one--
needless to say, the sense of union was incredible.

Maybe it's a sign
i felt so cynical today after looking at all of those pics of star breakups and just sad that marriage could end so easily
However, this wedding turned me around and said, "no. What you've been viewing is the media Hollywood version, the fake one. Now turn to me and witness what true love is."

I really can't wait until my wedding
I already have the songs chosen, the food and how to serve it, who to invite
all i'm missing is the groom ;]
haha jkjk

All you girls will definitely be my bridesmaids---or I'll be yours
as we grow up--all of us, one by one, will become bound to another

it's simply beautiful

I saw my mom and dad hold hands as the newlyweds took their vows
I saw they swaying on the dance floor
I think that if more married couples went to weddings then there would be less divorces, because those couples would be reminded not of the bad times, but of the good times. They would remember promising to be caring in sickness, considerate in good times or bad, and loving forever.
Personally--i was reminded of my marriage with God in that I am going to love him forever.

Thank you Lord for giving me back that hope that marriage can work out okay after all, especially since I was feeling so downcast today about marriage.

Split Heart

http://www.ivillage.com/demi-lovato-joe-jonas-breakup/1-b-16462

before you look at that link above
i'm going to tell you what it's going to be about..

the title is Star Break-ups

holy cow---no joke this link of forty nine pictures (and sadly enough, i went through every single one) is just about the one thing that can make any romantic drop their jaw
its horrifying
thirty year marriages splitting up
a one month fling
cheating
divorcing while pregnant
kids while boy friend and girl friend
age differences of thirty some years

what is this world coming to?
how can there be so many relationships tossed carelessly aside?
Is that even real love?

for me who's never had a relationship, this is unbelievable
..is this what i have to look forward to?
i think that I'm always going to look for not just that happy ending but also a happy beginning, happy middle
not that it's always going to be like that--there will be sad, angry, frustrating versions of all of those, but I guess some people believe that it's not worth the time and effort to get through them

if it's because you know in your heart that it's not the right person, that's fine..i understand
but be careful in choosing who you give your heart to in the first place too

divorce here and divorce there--its a crazy world
is it that easy to give up years of devotion to someone else?

I really want to believe that there is a lifelong relationship for people out there
(besides God---cuz we KNOW he's always there...actually..thats a really big comfort to me)

go to the link.here it is again
http://www.ivillage.com/demi-lovato-joe-jonas-breakup/1-b-16462

yeah--i know..please do not be like these stars
im speaking both to myself and to whoever is reading
please be faithful, true, loving, like God designed the world to be like.

scratch scratch..

one mosquito bite
two mosquito bite
red mosquito bite
.....................THE ITCH NEVER STOPS

Ocee Park Friends

This is what summer is for.

spending all day at ocee park

of course I'm skipping the part about SAT class
but its in the morning so its all good ^^

so today we basically went at it from 1-6:30
five and a half hours of pure basketball, football two hand touch, ultimate frisbee, volleyball, mafia, and tackle football.
not to mention swinging, spinning on tires, riding bumblebees, and sleeping in the grass

btw--spinning on a tire in tight circles is never a good idea at our age
especially if you combine it with being hurled around on a spinning carousel hehe

to say the least--
i came homeexhausted

to what do i owe this exhaustion?

to my lovely friends of course♥
they are the reason that I love summer so much
specifically today there was Alex, Jun, Hudson, Geoffrey, Patrick, Eric, Kevin, Andrew, and bria two newbies (hehe FINALLY SOME MORE GIRLS) eileen and leslie.

seriously guys--i dont know what i'd do without you
sometimes i feel like their mommy cuz we are such a huge lil family
or maybe i'm a brother---just another guy who WILL get tackled if i have the ball

but thats what they are---family

i feel so natural around each and every one of them

but yeah--i wanted to send a shoutout to my boys and Bria cuz even when we move and grow up, get families, go to college, get jobs,

we'll be friends forever

thanks ocee for letting us be amazing together

to my lovely sen10rs

its unbelievable how much I'm realizing that you wont be in high school next year
cuz all of you have made such a big imprint on my life
that my body doesn't recognize that you're someone to miss yet

thus
YOURE SENIORS!!!
oh my goodness----i watched most of you walk across that stage and my heart ached a little bit
haha can you believe that I'm going to be in that exact same spot next year? :]

but i'm going to say some things to each person here in random order

I just want to say that all of you have touched me, and i'll never forget you♥

1. thank you for being awesome, like an older sister, giving me rides, going crazy together, loving God together---you make me a better person, and I feel at home with you. we've spent our entire childhood together and now you're entering a new chapter---i shall join you soon.

2. I feel honored to have been able to take a picture with you ^^

3. Thank you for making me work hard--especially for encouraging me all the time and for holding the team together. I learned so much from you. You really were one of my role models in volleyball♥

4. I loved meeting someone who cared about environmentalism as much as i do---i have to say that that convo we had was one of the best i've had this year---it made me feel like i finally found a soul that connected to mine ^.^

5. i can't believe the cantaloupe thing actually worked :] haha i love how it much your passion for god shows when you speak about him. you were so respectful to my parents and they were actually pretty impressed---yay!

6. MY SENIOR! you are my SENIOR despite the fact that everyone else are my seniors too---but you are MY SENIOR the most because i am YOUR FRESHMAN! doode--we have been through so much together--specially new york--i remember you teaching me how to sing "the prayer"..your bday party--i will miss you more than ever so you better come back to visit meee

7. you inspire my fashion designer self--not only that-but i love your smile cuz you use it everytime you see me :]

8. that was an amazing dance party we had that one time--ctr, will's park, i love that even though we can't see each other often, when i talk to you, I feel as if we had never been apart. gah--and now you're going to california!!! >< i will miss you so much. thank you for being yourself because I love that part of you the best! you guys are the only ones that I allow to call me shuen.

9. Thank you for driving another person on this list in their walk with christ, not to mention my own walk with Him. It's so obvious that the Holy Spirit is in you.

10. i was kind of scared of you at first--but i shouldnt have judged a book by its cover. You are by far one of THE most lovable people I know. You always put others in consideration before yourself and i think of you as a huge teddy bear haha. please come over for jambalaya any day you want to in the summer. (you can come--but i cant guarantee we'll have it xD)

11. Thank you for being awesome. point blank. for helping to keep me accountable in reading God's word. You havent really said much to me about it, but your actions speak louder than your words. I am awe-inspired by you and will miss you mucho mi senorita!

12. YAYY your smile is super chirpy and homeroom was great cuz we were together---not to mention prom---i feel like we got to know each other much better this year--and i still haven't signed your yearbook! keep on being happy♥

13. we've been together since taylor road and i've never questioned that you wouldn't be there. but now you wont be there :O-- you were the first boy that i ever saw imitate the dance moves of korean girls music videos---keep on dancing awesomely ;] and it was awesome seeing you at movie night AND church! :D

14. haii---i cant believe that you played cards at graduation wow...but yeah--its been cool helping out youth group this year with you. and thankyou for my orch award♥ it bleeds for you (in a good way)

15. i love that we've become friends enough to the point where hugging you doesn't feel like i'm torturing some poor bunny. it feels natural now :] your heart is beautiful---and we need to talk more for sure before you leave me.

16. You are my church mommy--heck you are everybody's mommy. And you're abandoning your child..aren't you ashamed? >:O haha jkjk
but i love you in its entirety. You say things to me cuz you care about me and you're always smiling when i greet you---let's continue walking in christ together♥

17. mm this year was amazing--hearing you play solo for the first time hehe >:] that was such a completely unexpected meeting--and now COSTA RICA! woohoo! haha and prom--that was really a great memory. AHH! i remember being so intimidated by your reputation before and you turned out to be this amazing down to earth guy who i love to watch on stage too...and whos going to college sniff sniff

18. hehe--you rocked my video---me too!--lets hang at ocee sometime..even though we speak in jokes most of the time--you are a deep cookie and i'm really happy that i got to know you more this year :]

19. mmm man for a while there we texted a WHOLE bunch lool...but yeah--i was also a little intimidated by you at first--cuz you seemed kind of scary....but once we got to talking, i felt so inspired by you. You helped keep me accountable and gave me more theology than i was ever expecting. winter retreat---memory kept forever. i cant wait to see what God does in you. :]

20. mmm♥ you and your black talk..you're the first person i ever heard to say "WOMANG." im so excited for costa rica---we shall do amazing things together. keep on working hard and know that He's with you ^^

21. you've taken care of me so well in orchestra over these past years. i love our scrapbook! ahh! just had to throw that in there... i dont know what im going to do without you next year--go recruit some freshmen haha. mmm--you made won-il be nice to me and i had so much fun with you this year--you're sweet even when you say criticist (is that a word?) thing--cuz you just say them with LOVE haha...you'll always be the function on the top of my list ;]

22. oh what to say what to say..i feel like i've already said everything in your yearbook entry..but i want to restate it again cuz you really do mean that much to me. you truly were the one that made me feel the most welcome in chattahoochee as a freshman and lil freshmen like me never forget someone like that..someone who doesn't treat them like a younger random person, but as an equal. your love for people is amazing. i know that you have your ups and downs but you keep such a positive attitude anyways. man--you better not stop talking to me cuz you've been a part of life so long that i SERIOUSLY FOR REAL cannot imagine it without you in it. awww my wasabi brother is graduated--sigh*...you shall do awesome things cuz you love and fear God.

23. WHAT TO SAY? because there is so much that we have going on between us. I feel like we are friends with an unshakable bond. We can act simply crazy together..haha i saved you for last cuz i felt like you deserved this esteemed spot ;)..but anyways--you've been more than a friend.you've been a sister..you and your entire family. we can talk about anything and we strengthen each other's relationship with God. you make me laugh when you laugh and we served on our original nashville team. even though you hate it when people bring up your funny stories..i'll always love them because they represent a side of you that marks you as different than so many other people. You are unique and special in my heart---♥

Walking

TODAY IS THE LAST DAY OF SCHOOL

last year on the last day of school--i rode home on the bus, went straight to the computer to print out directions to laser quest for my first time lasertagging ever.
It was freaking awesome
will never forget that amazing time with monique, jessie, donna, karen, and muchos otros.
Then we went to Monique's house to celebrate her birthday!!!! whew!
(which in case if you dont know is tomm :3) HAPPY BDAY MO!
gooood memories


this year's was completely different
notice that I didn't say bad---in fact it might be even as good, because it is simple.

I got to walk

walking is so simple
but so underrated.
over creeks- under trees- past rabid dogs- in mud- with shoes- without shoes- past wildflowers-over fences-on trails- over rocks- with cars whooshing by- through gates of options

there is no end to walking possibilities..
and i experienced every single one of those today
not only that
but i was treated to a one dollar (took like ten minutes on deciding how to save the most money) whopper jr. at the end of it

that wasn't even the best part
I got to walk with two friends who I care for deeply
and we walked together
there is something in walking with another person that makes you appreciate them all the more.
that's why it's called a WALK to remember
romantic walks on the beach
our walk with Christ
it all ties in

i miss my walks with you guys at ocee
we'd talk about nothing and everything at the same time
even when we didn't talk and just moved simultaneously, matching each other's pace, and constantly swaying from one side of the path to the other,
lightly bumping shoulders
it was bonding

I need to walk more
laugh more
DANCE MORE (love you tinny, tammy, trish, ting ...hehe...four T's)

When I walk with someone---with a friend, parent, with Christ
our time together is unforgettable.

its here!

I dont really feel a difference between the day school ends and summer
its a seamless line

basically---i've already submitted to summer a LONG time ago

The Apple

I struggle with so many temptations around me

i know that you do too

They're always there
commonly disguised and waiting
fooling you into believing that one second won't be much harm

That's why we have people---to keep our inner conscience awake
making us realize that what we craved so much
isn't really that important at all

a kid again

i'm a spunky monkey
with a spunky ducky
who had a spunky cat
who went and ate a rat
and sang the songs of time
the windows swing and chime
the trashbins sway with ease
like bamboo in the breeze
horses prance and dance
i saw my ragged pants
im a poet in disguise
words will end in my demise

----after a long day
long week
typing whatever you want to without analyzing rhetorical strategies
thinking of examples
wondering how in the world a termite emits methane

writing whatever without a care in the world
is SUCH a relief :]

formspring

i caved :]

http://www.formspring.me/gamegirl822

Reality Intercepts

yeah--i recently woke up from that dream of a perfect summer

it hasn't even begun and i already feel more overwhelmed than i do with schoolwork

Dreaming

i had a really weird dream last night---
too embarrassing to tell

two nights ago i slept walk for the first time in a year
i know FOR A FACT that i had gone to sleep in my own bed
and yet at five am i found myself crunched up sideways in a oneman armchair
in a completely random room

This feels weird for me

This type of stuff used to happen a lot when I was little
speaking in my sleep
falling down stairs
having both good and bad dreams

once---when i was sleeping over at my grandmothers
i was having a nightmare that my family was leaving me in a scary museum
i apparently spoke in my sleep and shouted while crying
I WANT TO GO HOME!!! I WANT TO GO HOME!!

thus--my grandmother felt so bad (cuz she thought i was speaking for real)
that SHE BROUGHT ME BACK HOME
LOOL and i woke up saying---umm...i thought that i was at nai nai's house O.O

Then there are those dreams where you can fly, not like a bug with wings
but peter pan style--yet not as suave
where you can't exactly go the furthest you'd like to, but a good height nonetheless
where sometimes you need a running start
where you need to flap your hands
and once you reach the apex..you feel yourself coming back down to reality.

You can't control them

hehe--sometimes when you wake up from a dream
and if you go back to sleep quick enough
it will pick right back up where you started--as if you had taken a bathroom break or sumthin sumthing

i think that dreams reveal our inner selves so much
the longing, the fears, and the unconscious desires that we never knew we had

you take a step back and ask---is that REALLY what i dreamed?
WAAAAAAATTTT? i had never thought that thought in my conscious life!

and then---you begin to see the dream as truth..

I Will Survive

YESSS!!!

i am finally able to blog again
you have no idea how many times i came to this new post page
all ready with thoughts of the day

when the reality of AP week came
with basically a practice exam at seven am today
AP Calc BC 7:45 Wed
Lang Paper due today--oh stink--turn it in.com...brb

BACK
anyyyways
summer is coming and i love it
and, i have a ton of stuff to say

but most of all i just want to thank God for letting me survive these past two weeks
and if he can just get me past next week intact---wait if?
of course he can!!!! :)