long time no see old bloggy friend.... actually, i had almost forgot about you until my blog partner JESSIE♥ inspired me with her awesome posts....
sooo, this past week has been pretty hectic..lots of evaluating type things and these are the things that scare me the most i remember when I was a ittle bitty kid on swim team, i honestly never wanted to compete, go to the meets or any of that good stuff. I just liked practices. I just like swimming, no worries, no stress, no frustration. Just straight up loving what I did.
Nowadays there's all this pressure to do well. And I get that I really do. I'm a more than competitive person myself and I don't see much fun in it if you're not playing to win. But that's not all that counts. But that's what they tell us in high school. No one really cares if you tried out for a competition, but only if you win it.
okay, so I know that you want to know what I'm talking about. It's just everything right? Saturday: all-state auditions
Saturday: State Volleyball Tournament (though I didn't get to play...i'm kinda upset about that) Monday: GHP interviews
and the list goes on and on.... cause you see...all of these sorts of things have a second round to them. And if I could make the first rounds of any of them, I'd be ecstatic, over the moon, flat out happy....but then that little bit of mentality pokes and tugs at your mind reminding you that the fight isn't over yet.. getting exhausted yet? :] but despite everything, I know it's worth fighting for.
Volleyball's over, but never in my life did I think that I would be able to be on this varsity team, let alone in the final four top teams in the state. It is a memory I will never lose, though I did lose my voice x].
If I make all-state for the first time ever, I will not take it for granted, cuz that is an honour and opportunity that I would ABSOLUTELY LOVE. Spending time with orchestra friends, playing in Savannah....but right now it's so farfetched that all I can do is practice my heart out.
Finally here comes the one and only Governor Honor's Program.....en espanol...para mi that is. I'm not even going to talk about this, cuz I'll jinx my chances haha ^^
so basically, it all comes down to work.... that was our team's motto this year.
but y'know.... though winning would be great....I'd much rather learn how to live life the way God wants it to be, living it smart, filled with love laughter tears hugs and people
"The work goes on, the cause endures, the hope still lives and the dreams shall never die."
gotta long road ahead of me....
