God Please

I don't know if I did the right thing. so please God, just answer me. I can't live not knowing if i did what was right.

True Prosperity

Economic historian Avner Offer says,

True prosperity is a good balance between short-term arousal and long-term security.

I consider my long time security to be with God always.
My short-term arousal is his work in my life and witnessing it in others, and yes, life is short-term.
God, you ARE true prosperity...but we already knew that :]

our walk to WOMANHOOD in Christ! (Reposted from Jessie's Blog)

but anyways, women's bible studies!! AHHHH WHAT A WONDERFUL THING! so christine started a group with me, jaime, and rebecca (and we're hoping hannah will join too), doing bible studies solely focused on WOMEN and their roles and how they fit into the whole biblical lifestyle. and so our first meeting was yesterday! and we went through genesis 1-3 and 24. and among the woman talk, there was also a lot of outside questions, discussing various things within those verses, since genesis can oftentimes be hard.. i don't even know where to start in typing all the things i learned..

but women and men have very distinct roles. my feminist side was basically shot down, but i embraced it, i really did. men should be the leaders, and women should be the supporters- both are different but EQUAL roles, equally important, both serving God. we know this because in genesis 1:18, God says He'd make a HELPER suitable to adam. we HELP the man. also, God created adam in His image, right, and yet, eve was also created in His image, but God isn't a he or a she because He's above gender and such. but that means, in a sense, that His image was almost split between male and female! and that together, we make this perfect and amazing union of what God's image should be. if that makes any sense.

but really, it's so romantic. christine was talking about how God can write the perfect love stories. God makes adam go through all the animals, searching to see if there was any suitable helper. but keep in mind that adam didn't know what a woman was. he didn't have that standard of what was good and not good. but yet, even though he didn't have a standard, he still inherently KNEW that none of these animals were suitable for him, that it just wasn't right. and that's why, when God sent eve, adam was all the more appreciative, and that's where the bible's first piece of poetry comes in- in verse 23, when adam is marveling about eve. and how beautiful is that, that the first piece of poetry from adam didn't come from all the other creation, from the animals or the plants or the sky, but from this WOMAN? AHHH BEAUTIFUL.

and the rib has so much significance, that we were made from the man's rib... because that's close to the heart. omgaw. and this perfect union.. it's just... beautiful...

and what i loved too was that God let adam be alone first before giving him eve. it's a time of preparation. a time of waiting. a time of being with God. and that's so applicable- we all need this time of preparation, of being with GOD and loving and growing in Him, before we can be ready to be in a relationship! even ADAM needed it! and in chapter 24, rabekah needed it! because even though the girl supports and the guy leads, it's more like, if God is in the center of both lives, then GOD will lead through the guy and support through the girl! and also- since God is the ultimate source of love, then we NEED GOD in order to LOVE. HOW BEAUTIFUL IS THAT. READ THAT SENTENCE AGAIN.

and then came the curses, when everything fell and all this sin came into the world. sigh, perfection lasted for only two chapters. and that's why there's all these dysfunctional marriages.. it wasn't supposed to be like that... :((( but christine talked about how high of a calling having a FAMILY was, because it really is a lot of work, to raise them in a godly way and to be the protector of the children. the family was established before the church, before missions... because the family is the people you will influence most! how scary that is, if you think about it.. but also what an amazing opportunity. the wives are thus called to lead the family, but not the church and such.

and then when we talked about chapter 24, about isaac and rebekah getting married and such. ah. so rebekah waited for her husband before she would adorn herself with any jewelry, and in a more applicable view, it means that we should wait before we throw around our hearts and such. that we shouldn't just open ourselves to every guy that comes, because there are some things that are just meant to be told to your spouse and such. and i really needed to hear that.

oh, and about celibacy too- she said that some ARE called to be single for the rest of their lives- like christian homosexuals. and that's beautiful too. that is a REALLY high calling.

-trinity existed in the beginning; jesus was there when God made earth

-we can only comprehend what God allows us to comprehend, because we're stuck in this time and space

- discernment is different from judging

because we can say someone's actions are wrong but we can't say someone's going to heaven or hell

ant = me. sand = hitler. god = mt everest

thus, our morality is altogether insgnificant and tiny

we all deserve to go to hell

predestination is a doctrine made for US to be assure of our salvation

Thank you Alex Kim!

For feeding my hungry rainbow fish :]

Christ is Stronger Than a Covalent Bond

It's ridiculous how many people get divorced.
It's horrifying how love can so easily dissipate into thin air.
It's heartbreaking to know that you no longer have another link to another person.

Honestly, Christ is the bond between all things.

I hear parents' friends with marital problems, job losses taking the heaviest toll on people, friendships being broken to smithereens. In today's society, there is absolutely no incentive to be moral. In fact, it makes more sense to be immoral, because that is how you get all of the "juice out of life." If you have finished squeezing all the pleasure or usefulness out of an object or a person, then it has become simply okay to toss it away, quick as a soda can into a dumpster.

I've seen so many people build and destroy relationships and it's just not supposed to work that way. Relationships are not superficial and were created to last.

No matter how many ways I think about it, the reason for these falling outs is because of a lack of Christ in that relationship. My dad consistently tells me, "you know, I don't think that I could have survived losing my job if I didn't know that Christ would take care of me." He along with with his fellow Christian co-workers knew times were tough but that they would get through it. Most all others fell into some depressed state and lamented how life was over. Marriages of family friends are falling apart because they are missing the essential glue! When you're married, it's so easy to forget how to love the right way, how to continually return to the basis of respect and most importantly selflessness.

22 The stone the builders rejected
has become the cornerstone;

-Psalm 118:22

I'm just venting here cuz of stuff I've seen and heard recently, but please..make Him your cornerstone, the base that you build your integrity and relationships on.

surprises

Oh..i am SOO SOO interested and hyper and excited and in suspense about what God holds in store for me now...

Im-ma back!

I was delightfully reminded today that I have time again to blog
and so I shall!
People probably have stopped even checking mine, so I can be a little more kooky (i spelled it cooky at first xD), more quirky, dumber, more nonsensical, more in the moment, and best of all, jokes that make people groan.

And in case you're wondering why this post is titled "Im-ma back!" It is because I have played way too much Wii Super Mario Bros. Each time you use a continue for Mario, he shouts in his cute Italian cartoon voice, IMMA BACK! hehe...thus the weirdness begins...

So..I've been fiddling around with a guitar some..and by ignoring facebook, phone, email, and all other forms of distracting communication, I was actually able to focus on just trying to work some things out. I can now play the intro to Sweet Home Alabama, Don't Stop Believing, and Beautiful Soul! As well as How Great is Our God. I'm hoping to get that last one down really well, especially because I want to move on to other praise songs. I don't know how much time I will have to play violin seriously in the near future, but I'm glad that guitar is one of those things that doesn't have to be perfect or anything. You can just pick it up and make a beautiful sound that is ten times easier than playing violin with a beautiful sound.

Gosh, this is so much fun blogging again...
And there is really no true purpose to this post besides announcing my coming out of retirement. I miss our blogging community of girls: Penn (you've stayed faithful), Bria, Christina, Jessie. Hehe, those last two have switched to Tumblr. Traitors >:]
But, this past week has been amazing especially with all the no school.

Highlights of the Week:
1. Praise God for giving me this week to take time to heal properly from my sickness
2. Princeton interview was stinking amazing..either my best or second best
...I think I just connect with people who grew up in Georgia better..
3. Best snowball fight ever from Taco Bell all the way to Ocee Park♥
4. Snow Penguin named Henry
5. Playing five straight hours of Super Mario Bros. with Andrew Hsu
6. Going to my first Christian concert
7. No school (obviously)
8. Starting my gym routine :D
9. Daily Devotions (Pray that my resolve won't die!)
10. Near collisions with the mailbox when sledding down the hill
11. Actually setting up a dinner theatre plan
12. SLEEPOVER WITH CHRISTINA--HOLY COW, HOW DID I WAIT THIS LONG TO PUT IT DOWN?!
13. Surprising news from all places
14. Our huge amazing prayer group
15. Squishy dolphins
16. Playing guitar
17. Did I mention no school?
18. Staying up late
19. Banana split ice cream
20. Thank you God for this beautiful whiteness that has allowed all of these precious moments to unfold♥

IMMABACK!