For You

"P E R H A P S after all, romance did not come into one's life with pomp and blare, like a gay knight riding down; perhaps it crept to one's side like an old friend through quiet ways; perhaps it revealed itself in seeming prose, until some sudden shaft of illumination flung athwart its pages betrayed the rhythm and the music; perhaps....perhaps...love unfolded naturally out of a beautiful friendship, as a golden-hearted rose slipping from its green sheath..."

This is my favorite quote ever taken from the series Anne of Green Gables. I know it's corny and all poetic, but think about it. And if you've been hurt by a knight...maybe even many knights who just seem to show off every one of their good qualities except for the real ones, then listen to this.

You may be looking for love.
You might say that you're not, but subconsciously you always are
and you know it.
But if you think about it, maybe love is trying to find you
But it can't
Because you keep missing each other rushing from place to place
Sometimes you think you see love
But it turns out to be a complete stranger
But the good thing is... when you finally slow down enough to wait for love
He'll catch up with you
Maybe he was that person who sat on a bench with his back to you
As you sat at the train station waiting
Or maybe he'll be the one anxiously checking the train schedule everyday
Just the same as you
As if he's trying to meet up with someone too
And then that day will come when love will sidle up next to you
On your bench
And you'll say "I've seen you before"
But I never realized that you were here before.
And as you wait for his reply, no matter how mundane
the sound of the trains fades away

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Moral: Ride Marta♥

Summer Lovin♥

Blissful----c h e e r y-----JOYFUL----delighted------Ecstatic----thrilled---exultant ---- BLITHE ------- Spectacular ----L0veLy---MERRY
BL E S S E D♥

Aren't you simply all of the above words?
YEAHH!!
school's out and its time to have fun ^.^
okay... so technically school isn't out until exactly 12:25 tomorrow afternoon, but for me, I'm already celebrating cuz I just have orchestra and AP WORLD (which we've already taken haha) tomorrow. How can life get better?

Not only is school out, but the loveliest (Don't you love the word lovely. It's like those romantic English words like "perhaps" or "heavenly") ...anyways, the loveliest season of the year is here!

S U M M E R s u m m e r s u m m e r s u m m e r

honestly, i can never get enough of it. How can anyone not enjoy all of the summery characteristics: the merry sparkle of the pool, the enchanting sunsets, the neverending time
All through school I feel like I've been pushed so hard with schoolwork, volleyball, and just the basic things around the house.
Even though I know that I have it nowhere near as bad as others, I've got to say that complaining about it is half the fun ~.~

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Now I have to take the time to actually get some constructive stuff done this summer

• #1: Get closer to God---Baptism June 21st----be there x]

Learn how to drive well

Earn $$$ [quartet maybe]

Make my first dress

Move into the bonus room and decorate it

Clean the garage out

Create a clothes design portfolio

Practice volleyball---to make V A R S I T Y!!---right bria? x]


Get better at violin--- allstate? >.<

Learn to do a splilt

hopefully first time at shocco?


Hold a backyard dinner party


Do all my summer hw EARLY (not all procrastinated like i usually do)


Go to Shocco

Cook dinner for my mom the whole summer


Practice new recipes

Go to Six Flags

Run at least a mile at Ocee four times a week

Score brownie points with Wendy

Introduce 3 people to God


Do well on the June SAT

Tutor little kids


Help out with the coffee machine (gotta take over the family business one day :])

B L O G

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now you guys have to help keep me accountable kay? ^.^ and most of all ..
K E E P I N T O U C H!!!!! because summer may be fun without school but it is nothing without my F A M I L Y, friends, and our FATHER♥

Happy Mother's Day!!!

Happy Mother's Day..
to all of those people out there who are reading this...
spend some time with your mom because in only a few more years are you going to be truly hers.
When the time comes for the baby bird to leave the nest..it's for forever
and personally, i don't think i'm just that ready to grow up yet.
so in that time, i'm going to be cuddled, hugged, spoiled, kissed, teased, and just be LOVED♥

Doesn't it feel good to know that somewhere in this world you are loved?

A lot of the time, we push love away and take it for granted.
Our parent's love. yet we start a fight over a silly thing. friend's love. yet we don't appreciate them being there and take them for granted. pet's love. yet we say we're busy and that it is being bothersome, but you know that we'll miss it when it's gone. God's love. everlasting neverending, yet we deny his name and teachings over and over again.

But you know what the best thing is? :] it never goes away. This warmth and happiness that you get when you're hugged by your mom that is.
She knows what makes you happy and sad, what to do when you're hurt physically and emotionally. She'll criticize you when you need it. and when you don't need it. But it's all because she LOVES you!!!

So go take the time to make her a card, cook her breakfast, bring her flowers, and take the time to be her slave for the day! ^.^l

From the Inside Out

Those of you who went to Winter Retreat 08..
remember this pic?
the act of losing oneself is something that can't ever be replaced
the best we can do is try to pick up the pieces and find peace with those pieces...
NOOOOO
that's what God's for. For the million times we're lost, he find us. For the billion times we break down, he stands us back up on our feet. For the numberless times that we need Him...he is there.

I know this is a pretty gloomy entry for my second post but a recent event spurred this that's why. One of my friends is going through a pretty rough time with her boyfriend right now.

Scratch that...she's basically decimated. she had the perfect relationship because the person she was with made her feel happier than she had ever felt before and he was the only person who could do that. To top it off, he was like her best friend, herego = perfect relationship. Then he broke up with her... :O

and i don't want to give you all the details because after all, this is her personal life. But in order to make my point i'll give you a bit more. Personally, before this, I had never TRULY seen a girl heartbroken. Sad yes. Depressed yes. Broken up over a guy yes. but never headon, straight, pure heartbrokeness. [comparison: think of a certain girl in New Moon who loves a certain golden-eyed vampire] There's a ton of stuff in between, but all you need to know is that a lot of stupid things were said, rumors leaked, and a lot of deepfelt anger.

sooo.. they started talking after three months as of two days ago. Yes, I know. two days. and you know what? She was incredibly happy. She told me she seriously loved him and her happiness simply radiated from her. Isn't it amazing what being in love on the inside can do to one's physical appearance?♥ well I loved seeing her so happy because she became a gentler and more loving person in simply those two days. A fairy tale ending right?

.....as we all have experienced at some point and time, this cannot always be true. At six she got a text from him saying that he loved her with all his heart. TWO HOURS LATER. He had texted her again saying that they couldn't be together anymore because his parents had found out about them and so much more stuff. woww.. how romeo&juliet is that? But it was the first breakup all over again. She just kept saying

"I'm so tired. I'm just so tired."

and it broke my heart to see her like that; to be hurt to the depths of her heart for the second time in a row. by her best friend none the less.


Point of story: she is an atheist and doesn't feel that strongly about religion. We've talked about it some and being in APWORLD and all, that doesn't help her opinion any. But I KNOW that if she would simply trust in God. ...
give Him her time...her worries...her broken heart...
then no other treatment would be better.
It's like I told Grace one time....you can't cure the heart with a test for the brain or by swallowing a pill for the stomach

only your spirit can cure the heart and the only one who can send the spirit is HIM

so if you're reading this..send a prayer to my friend. Watch it take off and soar
because who knows? that prayer might cure her from the inside out.

Today's Gift

Ever wonder what life would be like without God?
ever wonder what life would be like without the tiny ittle bitty surprises in life that keep you guessing every day?
for example......
that penny you found on the sidewalk that just made your day
that flower someone left by your locker that made you smile
that random hug that your mom gives you and says, "i love you"
Or just that random feeling you sometimes get when you know you are loved
yup
that's Him alright
sure we can get frustrated
for example.....
today i wasn't good to my sister because 1)i was nagging her to get ready for church 2)she wanted to stick around with me at church and i basically ignored her x.x
today i was being super bossy to my group partners (wow i really am a bossy person) and if you ever read this, i'm sorry for my chronic bossiness
today i sat at the computer instead of talking to my family

and there are just those little things that get you down

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FAST FACT
before i forget:
my SAT teacher actually told me this
did you know sitting in front of your computer for too long can make your hair fall out or effect your baby?
O.O
wowww lol
it's cuz of the radiation or something like that..
anywayss
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but those frustrating things are what make us who we are...
sure we can wish life was perfect all the time
but you know what?
sometimes i think that its life's imperfections that make us get up every morning
because A: we are not and will ever be perfect
B: its by how we fight those imperfections that defines us
C: we know we don't deserve life, yet we're given a second chance every second of the day...

because of that everlasting love God gives us
so...when you see that penny or have a hidden smile
that's God's gift for the day to you :]

how's that for a first post?♥